I got to take Bella for another walk today – bloody unheard of seeing as it was just Monday we got lost.
We didn’t go far, across the road to the fields for 20 minutes or so, enough for us today. But on this walk something wonderful happened.
About halfway I stopped to let Bella catch up, once every blade of grass between us had been inspected, shredded or pee’d on. In this pause, marvelling at my dog like I always do, I became aware of a strange feeling within me; Peace and no pain. Yes, you read that right. I too was in disbelief that I stood and did a full body scan, and nope, I couldn’t identify any pain. My head was clear and I got to take a deep breath that felt like it was the first time I could breathe in a long time.
Inevitably, it lasted just a few short minutes but it was wonderful. Usually walking increases my pain, but today something was different.
Friday I started my 4-week low histamine diet. Friday and Saturday were rough days with pain, nothing unusual there, but my watch was certain I’d woken Saturday with a higher body battery than usual – 51%!! I’m not sure where it was stored as I couldn’t feel it or access it, but I’ve seen the watch is quite accurate and helps me prevent crashes by running out of battery.
However, today I woke up with 82% which is a number I haven’t seen since the start of all this. Better yet, I felt it. I didn’t feel so heavy, lower pain levels and a clearer mind. It could just be one of those lucky days, but I’m wondering if perhaps it’s eliminating histamine and therefore reactions.
Time will be the decider on that, but what if my health has been so dismal because I have been having reactions for the last 3.5 years? I’m getting ahead of myself a little, I know, but I have to hold onto hope that something, at some point, will help me in my quest to heal.
And my darling thoroughly enjoyed her walk with me today. The increase in meds is starting to help too, I’m seeing promising changes finally. She’s become more cuddly. For a long time now she’s refused to keep me company when I’m stuck in bed, and only occasionally requested to be a lap dog in the evenings. But nearly every day, for the last 5 days, she’s keen to be the velcro dog I’ve always know. It’s been wonderful, and incredibly good for my soul. That she wants to seek and give comfort again is nothing short of a miracle.
The barking all day has also reduced, though when she gets started she’s insistent. But those times are nearly always for something like cheese on her breakfast, lunchtime snacks, toilet breaks or dinner. Not forgetting second dinner of course, she certainly won’t let me!
I really think my Bella is starting to become content again, and on just 200mg at lunch times, which can be increased up to 500mg. Again, I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but I really believe this could be buying us more time together. That and the fact I’ve managed to walked her 3 times in as many weeks really feels like a sign of progress for us both.
I’m glad I get to come here and share that hope and joy with you, I know my updates aren’t always sunshine and roses. But maybe, just maybe, my hope has not been misplaced this time 🤍