So I’ll start off with the great news, my pillow arrived and I slept wonderfully last night. I woke up with significantly reduced neck pain – so thank you to everyone who’s donated to help me.
The fundraiser has been a rollercoaster, especially emotionally. I just didn’t think it would take off like it had, and I was honestly just excited to raise enough to see the private doctor. To have raised £1275 is just phenomenal, and I’ve cried a heck of a lot. I’m putting it to one side so I have it there should I need any tests or treatments following the appointment, or if Bella needs anything urgent too.
I saw a doctor on Tuesday to discuss my recent change in health. I’m in for more bloods today to check for coeliac disease and IgE levels. She’s also referring me to a dietitian as chicken salad isn’t sustainable, though it’s hardly my fault my body rejects everything else. We did a simple yaki soba last night, hoping that fresh veg etc would be ok. Wrong!
Naturally during this appointment I explained that I just ‘can’t cope living like this and being afraid to eat’. So I was hit with the ‘we do need to consider these reactions being a physical manifestation of your mental health, you could be having panic attacks.’ So I’ve tasked the doctor with finding at least one person in Britain who has panic attacks at the idea of roast dinners and Chinese takeaways. I don’t hold out a lot of hope for her, but I’ll remain open minded. I did kindly point out that the symptoms started before my mental health dipped, not the other way around.
My private bloods came back last night and while they’re mostly ok, there are some concerns. Most of the lipid results, regarding cholesterol, are high and do need addressing. This obviously isn’t good news for my heart health. Of course the doctor that reviewed these doesn’t know my situation, so he’s recommended a healthy lifestyle and diet, including strength training. Which we all know I’d have never willingly given up. My testosterone is also low which is significant for women and impacts mood, energy etc. Again I’ve been prescribed strength training. And my liver is showing signs of stress.
I’ve sent these results to my doctors surgery to review alongside last weeks bloods and the ones being done today. I will of course keep you posted on this.
I’m booked to see Dr Claire Taylor on December 30th, but I will be checking daily for a cancellation that could get me in sooner. I still believe she is the best chance I have at getting real answers and real help. The doctor on Tuesday willingly admitted that western medicine and the NHS have quite a narrow and close minded viewpoint and they can only do what they’re allowed to do. It was refreshing to hear!
So there we are, you’re all up to date and this information is now no longer taking up storage space in my brain. I ensured I had a completely clear week, last week I did too much and I knew I needed to try and take things slower. So on Monday Tash dropped by and we took both dogs to walk around the block. Quite often I struggle with this, and Monday was no different. But I decided to do the last stretch along with edge of the fields so Bella could have a bit of a run. If you could have seen just how happy she was to be out with her mum you’d have cried with me. With her big smile, she didn’t run, she bounded and frolicked. It will unfortunately be her last off lead run outside of enclosed fields, but she had a wonderful time and so did I.